Nightmare

I’m having nightmares lately
of being unable to wake up
I’m awake now simply because i haven’t tried to wake up
to drown in your own squishy brain
trouble is it’s a real thing
without my meds
i flail an arm or plan a riot in my leg
to disturb myself
only to fall right back into the nothingness
other nightmares on repeat
a movie trope
grown stale and dark