On nights as this
On fire creeping towards a permanent end in bed
I’d rather die standing
Moving beyond platitudes into raw emotion
That death would take me before the bed again
ME/CFS robs me of my brain can’t think straight
Of my time must lay flat
Of my life mustn’t do this mustn’t do that
I die in peace I live in horror
The choice would be simple
But for the pain it would bring my family
So I will smile when I can
Turn away from touch but not from love
Ah this burning tonight has me thinking the down deeps of thought
AbyKittiwake 